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Esplanade Concert Hall
7 May 2006
Music, Heart, the one Art…
Yi By RJCO

I have been staring at the above 4 lines for quite some time oredi.. I know I am tired.. my feet are so painful that I don’t even want to stand up and bathe. I remember last year after concert, the only thing I wanted to do was to sleep.. but now.. I dunno how to say.. very weird feeling.. I am so tired that I cant sleep? Lot of things are running through my mind now.. I am a bit not clear about what I am thinking or talking.. so forgive me for whatever I am crapping..

This year the concert was a much relaxed experience for me no solo, not much responsibilities rather than just playing.. I was telling the dizi huiling that I will talk all the crap that I could not talk last year back.. hehe and the took lot of photos..

This yr the songs chosen were all very nice.. and I am really impressed by the effort put in by the juniors. I dunno how to say… I always got the feeling that they are my juniors and my little brothers and sisters, but this year, they are like grow up so fast… they are just doing so well.. I believe that everyone has to admit that RJCO improved a lot.. not only in the music aspect.. look at the XYZ now, I think Khoo really did a much better job than I did last yr. the Zhan Ma was good.. from the SAKURA in my J1 concert to the stupid Shan1 Dan1 Dan1 which we screwed up on the stage in my J2 concert.. the XYZ improved so much tt I cant really believe when I first heard their Zhan Ma.. Many many thanx to Khoo..

After the concert I saw a lot of seniors.. I have never liked my seniors except for a few.. that’s why I hesitated so much when xunqi asked me if I want to come back n perform.. I juz cant forget what crap what we had in J1.. we had so many chances to build the bond.. yet we failed to catch most of them. Cos we were occupied by so many things, so many unpleasant things happened. I really think it was a miracle that we managed to fight our way through last year.. talking about this, I really need to thank one person, Xunqi.. When everyone was so xian3 diao4 about CO, it was xunqi who inspired me with his passion to CO. and I tried my best to be a nice SL because once Xunqi told me “XYZ is important, lead it well.”

Well.. on my way back received a msg from my daddy, he said :after concert must start packing up .. and prepare go home liao. I have been preventing thinking of leaving.. before ytd, I had the concert to hope for.. i can always say.. got concert.. no time to pack up.. but after this, in about 10 days time, I am leaving.. oops.. in fact it’exactly10 days from now.. I hate the feeling… it’s the post concert depression and withdrawal syndrome again.. n it’s worse tan anytime.. cos when I say.. withdraw.. leave.. it means really leave.. n not coming back in some time.. last yr when I left I was already a bit heart break heart break lah.. but I can still hope for this yr.. haiz.. part of my life is taken away.. I am feeling very sick now…

posted by panda xuan @ 2:41 PM