Harp & Erhu

haha I had one fantastic afternoon with Michelle and Beth, prac Yang Guan San Die.. It is a really special experience.. Erhu with harp.. They sounded not bad together, and also in the harp prac room, the echo was damn good, hehe I dunno any words besides "shiok" that could described the feeling.. haha

I am really tired now.. dunno why, seems Erhu prac can be both physically and mentally draining, now I have no strength at all.. but I like the familiar feeling of tiredness.. like I always had on Sat afternoons.. once xunqi mentioned in his blog that it was the intensity that brought us so close.. I think it is not just the intensity of CO, we spent a lot of time together, playing, talking cock... I think another thing very important was that when we were playing the music together, most of us, if not all were exposing our true self and true feelings in front of each other. I find it is very difficult to hide one's emotion or personality when playing music, at least it is much hard than pretending when we talk or do something. I think it is easier to know one person through his/her music than talking with him/her.

Also I think it is the feeling of being accompanied that comforted me. When I was prac with Michelle, (forgot about the craps we had at the beginning), I think there was some type of link that we built, I know she could get an rough idea about what i was thinking.. I dunno.. It is weird that after coming to US, I always feel very awkward uncomfortable and insecure when people are trying to know more about me, except people like Chen Chen and moon, I do not want anyone to know what I felt..

hehe I think the best thing in this world is to have some people who can talk passionately about handsome guys with you all the time (in this case, I have already had a huge company), and to have someone who can talk passionately about music with you.. I really evny the School of Music students, who can talk about music all the time, can sing anywhere they want(even in the toilet).. For me, an Econs and Stats major student, I am not supposed to be like that, I am meant to be a dull person with only all the numbers and theories in my head, if I do talk about music, then I am either showing off or mad.. I hate this.. hehe Khoo, I really envy you, esp after reading about all the fun you had in YST.. =p

okie, I am really tired now, and I am going to sleep. Will have to wake up early tomorrow morning to start mugging for the exams..

Once again, thanx to Beth and Michelle..

posted by panda xuan @ 7:09 PM