fear...

I dun feel secure here at the land of freedom... and I dun believe anyone who watched the Virginia Tech Tragedy could say they think they are perfectly safe in the states...

33 killed and 20++ injured... The gunman is a Chinese student on F1 visa... (rumours not confirmed yet)

That's in a university... One of my classmate went back to his dorm and brought his baseball bat with him, and he claimed the purpose is to defend himself... When I really think about it, studying in the library till late night is in fact very dangerous here... I have seen drunk ppl in the library late at night many times... and I think I forgot that US is a country where ppl can legally own a gun...

Honestly, this is the first time in my life that I feel so insecure.. Even during the SARS period, when the boarding school was closed and we were confined in the boarding, I never felt so... Before coming to US, my brother warned me that US got lot of mad gunmen gg around and shoot people in the school.. my reply to that was "It's not gg to happen in universities like Michigan.." and now, it is happening...

Now I am quite troubled by two things: should I still go to library and study? Exams are coming.. Will I still be able to get a visa to return to US? (unlike the Singaporeans, our visa expires every one yr..)

I think the so-called American Dream has been hindered again, at least for me...

posted by panda xuan @ 12:50 AM